new years tonight.

me and anthony alone <333

i've hung out with him everynite this break i enjoyed it.. wish i had more time with diana and the girls cause i didnt see them at all but i'll hang out with them next weekend i guess or maybe monday.

<3 meg

show tonight was fun with diana except we had to eat at au bun pan cause like everywhere else had a wait haha when they had the manger thing at the end diana was lik omg look its chris it was funny lol and then she said she wanted to be jesus. n we were cracking up about the camels and the sheep and the ponkeys[ ponys + donkeys ] we were bad christians lol oh well it sucks i dont get to see anthony this weekend whatever he needs to send his college aps in and i'll just wait till he's done cause then christmas break i get to spend alot of time with him <33

Okay so generally every year i ask for a guy or in last years case a guy to kiss me/or just tell me he likes me or whatever. well last year i got the kiss but i didnt get him. but no hard feelings. this year i have the greatest thing that has ever happened to me, everybody knows how obsessed i am with my boyfriend. i freaking love the kid to death. if he gets upset im upset and if i upset him i do whatever it takes to make it up to him. we've havn't been getting along very well over the past few weeks and i hate it. i hate it when we fight and i hate it when he doesnt call. i hate it when he doesnt' care and i hate it when he doesnt tell me how he feels about certain things. if he didnt wanna go to the show he cud of just said it without agreeing to it. it wud of been okay not get me totally excited n then saying he didnt wanna go and being mean to me about it. and then dont tell me were gonna hang out and decide u wanna go to work when u havnt worked in months and u dont even need the money cause i pay for myself lately. i dont mind paying like sometimes i hate it when guys pay for me but like dnt ditch me to go make money when u could make it the next day doing something else. i hope he still loves me, sometimes i don't know. i get the feeling in my gut that he does he just never shows it. i really do care about him and if i lost him i'd go insane i just hope he know that he means the world to me and all i want for christmas is us to be okay <3

Xmas list.

1. me and my boyfriend to stay together

2. surgery to go well

3. more time with brothers

so thanksgivings over. this year i was thankful i found someone that i love. Since last christmas i have lost four people. These are the first four people that i have ever known to die. I lost my grandpa 2 days before christmas, my favorite uncle al the day before my birthday, alex's mom a week after the fourth of july, and now joey three days before thanksgiving. But i'm thankful that i have the people who love me to take care or me and get through everything.

Now it's christmas season and i love all the carols and the songs and everything about christmas except the fact that i'm always alone. So this christmas, all i want is to get through it. With him. ¢¾